coolered, sucked out on - i hate cowoys and rathollers!

How to beat ssnl: raise from the button, steal the blinds, sit out and never play again. – lol
This blog is just turning into a continued moan, I get coolered, I get drawn out on, either way I loose. There’s no interesting hands – coz I’m play ssnl, there’s no out playing people – coz they can’t fold, all there is are hands where some guy donks off his stack with a clearly beat hand, or hands where they try to donk off their chips but the party dealer gives them their perfect card.
My last three days have just been amusing:

1) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1751130 – one time
2) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1753970 – two time
3) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1754011 – three time – this was great coz he timed down to 1 sec before making this “tough call”
4) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1751139 – four time
5) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1753983 – so then I start getting outdrawn, which was a breath of fresh air after the constant coolering
6) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1751136 – not sure what the odds are, he’s probably correct to get it in – against me he’s probably a 9:1 fav.
7) http://www.pokerhand.org/?1753989 – this was kinda a cooler – but tbh I knew he had that hand – I just felt: if he can three outer me, I’ll try a four outer. What I loved more was that he said “cold deck, but I had odds to call the flop bet” I explained that 5% made him a 19:1 dog to catch on the turn, he responded by leaving the table, which made him like the 1000th guy to ratholl me!

Basically – I think I’ve completely lost patience with poker. I remember a few others complaining about how bad they run for long stretches. But I think the problem is different for me, I think I’ve run good for like 2 short stretches this year, and run bad all the other time. I remember negreanu complaining how he ran bad for the whole of WSOP 2005 – all I’d say is 6 weeks of live poker on a downswing is like me running bad for two days online – lol.

What I can’t seem to get to grips with is why it pisses me off so much when I lose at poker. When I gamble on the races It doesn’t affect me even if I have £50-£100 on a race and lose – last year’s Grand National cost me way over £150 if I can remember correctly and I was pissed off for about five minutes and then went down to the pub and enjoyed the rest of the day. – but over the last two days I’ve lost about $400 on the tables ($200 of which was profit from Monday) and I feel really shit about it. I’m just not sure it’s worth it. When I look at my losses for the year they amount to like £400 – I’ve had nights in out when I’ve spent more than that (not that I can afford to) and it’s cost me a lot less heart ache.

So why does poker piss me off so much? – I think it’s coz I have to lose to someone (whose usually an idiot); I don’t mind losing to a bookie, in a casino I feel like a mug just being there, but I don’t want to rip the head of the croupier when they drop their 15th blackjack on my 20, and I don’t even want bad things to happen to the painful shooter on the craps table who can only shoot a seven, so it’s just poker that fuck’s me off.

The other reason is that I think I’m quite a good poker player, I can put players on a range well – and lots of the time on a specific hand, I play aggressively enough to stay even without any big pot wins, and then when I get into a big pot I normally have the better hand – so statistically, I should win.

Basically, I really want to take a break from this game. When I think about, it’s got no value for me– I’m never going to be able to sustain myself by playing poker, and to be honest, I couldn’t think of anything worse – when I lose I feel shit, but I don’t have to start trying to work out how to pay the bills. I think the only reason why I want to play is to prove to myself that I can beat the game, and as painful as it is to admit it – it seems I can’t. I would love to work out if over the last 10 months I’m up or down in sklansky $s – coz I think that I’m up big! – lol

Anyways – have been told not to make my blog too much of a depressing read – and I really hope it hasn’t been. I hope that over the months there’s been some decent stuff on here. Over Christmas I’m going to be getting a job, not playing poker. But I’ve got a few more contacts on the race scene so I will be blogging up on my pony backing. I’m hoping that I don’t choose to play any poker though – I want to enjoy Christmas – lol
Ty for reading, best of luck to you all